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My 24 year-old son died of suicide March 10, 2012. It's been almost a year now since that awful day my young son grabbed a shotgun from our gun safe, one hollow point slug and walked across a field next to our house and into some woods, put the barrel under his chin and pulled the trigger. My wife (Pat's loving step-Mom) found his body the next day. The worst day of our lives. So much pain, grief, confusion, surreal scenes and dis-belief. The raw human emotions my boy must have been going through moments before he died. The raw human emotion his mother, step-mother, brother and sisters and I have been dealing with ever since. I found this site about 3 months after my son died. I can tell you that what this forum and on-line friends have done for me is nothing short a miracle. The AOH community has helped me to understand the human aspect of this grief. Of what to expect and understand that I’m not crazy –just a human being that was crushed emotionally by a most horrible and unbelievable event in mine and my families lives. I have long ways to go, but w/ the gentle guidance of the moderators and friends I have here, I know I can continue to survive and move forward in this new life of mine w/o my son. The most important reality for me is that, because of all I’ve gleaned from this site, I can think of my boy and not be tainted by the way he died, but just that he is dead now and I can smile, feel his love and move on.
In the most real way, AOL has helped me to find my life again. I am forever grateful for their on-going service to me and my well being.

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