I found AOH a week after my son took his life. This was 3 months tomorrow. I don’t know what I would have done without the forums. I was a total mess as his death was unexpected and I felt like I couldn’t go on. With the support from members I’ve made it this far. I log in several times a day and find the care, love, advice and empathy amazing. Everyone on AOH ‘gets’ how I feel no matter who they’ve lost. I’m so lucky to have found AOH as we have nothing that compares in the UK.
I joined AOH 2 months after my 24 year old son committed suicide the day before his 25th birthday. AHO is a safe place to come and feel accepted. A place to pour out your sadness, anger,helplessness where someone listens and responds with words of kindness, caring and support.
I credit AOH along with my therapist, family and friends in being able to survive this first year after my son's death.
Finding a group where the depth of your pain and loss is truly understood, isn't easy. Having a go-to-place that is always available 24/7, is almost unreal. Having found such a caring group of strangers some time after my child took his life, was being welcomed into a loving home. Lots of tears and hugs are shared, and healing truly happens here.
Since I lost my husband in 2016 to suicide, my life has been turned upside down and inside out. This is the most traumatic thing that’s happened to me. I have no family in the area and I’m all alone now with just my dogs. AOH has been a wonderful help! Having support from others who really understand this type of loss is extremely helpful. I’m grateful I have AOH to turn to in my many times of need.
Following the suicides of my mother and step father, this group helped me more than words could ever describe. I was completely lost in grief. I didn't know up from down, left from, black from white. Everything felt backwards and inside out. Like I had been thrown off the world completely. Through sharing and talking to other suicide loss survivors, I managed to cope with the insurmountable loss and continue to do so today, 2 years after they've passed. Without this group, I would still be lost. AOH saved my life and made living bearable when nothing else could.
This community of survivors of suicide loss has offered invaluable support to me since losing my son almost 3 years ago. This members of the group are always willing to offer compassion and understanding, even while dealing with their own painful experiences and deep grief. Though I am fortunate enough to live in an area with a number of in-person support groups, the Alliance of Hope has been available whenever I needed it, with people willing to listen and provide solace. I am extremely grateful to the group's founder, Ronnie Walker and to all of the good people that are part of AOH.
My 24 year old son hung himself right before Christmas 2016. He didnt live near me and I searched frantically for 2 weeks trying to find him knowing something was wrong. Jan 5 2017 I was contacted by police , he was hanging for about 2 weeks in his closet. I was of course devastated . My brain was on fire. I found this sight. I wrote everything at all hours of the night going crazy wondering why, how, and the guilt. And I found the most kindhearted moderators , whom never judged my son or I. And it gave great peace to all those questions and thoughts that consumed my brain. Im not 100% and not sure I will ever be but this sight saved my life cus I wanted to go with him in the beginning. Awesome people here that truly understand what its like to loose a child to suicide. Thank GOD for Alliance of Hope.
After losing my son in 2015 to suicide, the people in my life tried their hardest to understand what I was going through, but despite their love, and patience and support; how could they understand? I finally found Alliance of Hope 2 months later. It was this website where I found others who had lost loved ones to suicide, and they truly understood what I was experiencing. From the trauma of finding my son, to the little baby steps starting to put my life back together. I have yet to post something on this site that no one else has experienced. The members cry with me, and share my accomplishments. No matter what time of day or night I post,others are there to listen and share their journey. Three years later I still turn to AOH, and can say, that this website has been critical in my healing and journey through grief. I am forever grateful for this website, for saving my life, helping heal my broken heart . Alliance of Hope saves lives, and heals hearts. If you are a suicide loss survivior, I invite you to our forums where you will feel understood and unconditionally supported.
This site was something I just stumbled upon in May 2018, while desperately searching for some help after my best friend's suicide. This site has truly been my lifeline. I'm not sure where I'd be without it. I recommended it to my friends and family.
While everyone there has gone through such tragedy, it's a beautiful thing to be able reach out 24/7 and always have someone there to talk you through your darkest moments.
The moderators are wonderful and the resources are truly helpful.
This site is a Godsend.
This site has been so helpful and instrumental in my coping with my husband's recent suicide. The warmth, understanding , sharing and helpful advice of other caring members has gotten me through many dark hours. The members understand the complicated and extraordinary grief and circumstances we are each going through and are there to help or simply to listen so you are not feeling all alone. I cannot say enough good things about it. It is especially helpful that those whose losses are more distant are there to provide encouragement and relate their experiences in things getting somewhat better as time passes. I am very grateful for this site and the way the site is moderated and organized.
This site has been a lifesaver for me. I lost my husband to suicide and felt as if I had no reason to live and no will to keep going. No one in my day to day life seemed to be able to relate to my grieving. Finding Alliance of Hope for Suicide Loss Survivors was so overwhelmingly comforting and continues to bring me peace on a daily basis. It helps tremendously to have a place you can log onto any time day or night, weekends and weekdays, and holidays. The support is reassuring and to know you aren't alone has helped me in getting through the devastating loss. This site is absolutely wonderful and the members are so supportive of one another. It truly makes my heart happy when I log on to be able to read and reply to others who know exactly what I am going through.
The AOH has proven to be a lifeline to me after I lost my son to suicide. In the aftermath of this traumatizing experience I realized that there is not much out there in terms of support for people like me - a suicide loss survivor. The AOH forum is like stepping in to a warm safe place where you can escape to a world where people TRULY understand what it's like to be a survivor.
When my husband took his life, I was broken and shocked beyond words. His death left me without my best friend, companion, love and my young children without a father. Other losses came steadily in all areas of life.
Mourning this loss is a unique and complex. I have known many losses in my life; nothing compares to this. The isolation and stigma are very real. The people I expected to be the most supportive disappeared after the last casserole dish was returned. I have learned this is not a unique experience. So, where does a devastated person turn? Thank God for the Alliance of Hope. A member quickly learns that any guilt, fear, a host of other emotions & experiences are not that unique. Not in this world. They're still painful, but what a relief to find comfort & understanding! Those who have built lives of meaning after this loss, share experiences and hope. They prove a real life is possible. Support and help are here 24/7. At some of the hardest times, holidays, the trained moderators are available for support.
There aren't enough words to express how much the Alliance of Hope means to me. How do you explain what being able to live and having hope for a full life means?
I lost my husband to suicide. I was going through a very difficult time when a good friend of mine suggested I find a group to connect with who have also lost someone to sucide. The Alliance of Hope for Suicide Survivors Forum has goes above and beyond my expectations. At first I was afraid about broadcasting my personal thoughts and feelings, however, the members on the forum have been very caring, supportive, and understanding for me. They helped me feel comfortable when I did not. The members on the Forum have given me a place to share with them and they understand and know how painful my circumstances are because they have had similar experiences and can relate to my feelings. Now, I feel better in my skin and I can also send love and caring thoughts to others in need which makes me feel good about myself.
The forum on Alliance of Hope for Suicide Loss Survivors (AOH) has proven to be a tremendous resource for me during a very difficult time in my life. I have met people on the site who have experiences similar to mine, and who have helped me in countless ways. I know there is someone to share with online virtually any hour of any day, and that person will be supportive and understanding. I have also found satisfaction in helping others as best I can. AOH is a blessing.
As the one-year anniversary of my 17-year-old son's suicide is slowly and quickly approaching, I look back and cannot be grateful enough for the lifelines I still have left. Alongside my only surviving daughter, local support groups, my psychologist and walks with a fellow suicide loss survivor, Alliance of Hope continue standing as an absolute necessity to my survival. It is only within this tiny circle that I feel safe to share this most challenging journey that have twists and turns when least expected. No other family member, friends, coworkers, etc. could even remotely understand. Some expect me to keep a stiff upper lip and move on as if life is still great and grand. This unreasonable expectation came from some almost immediately after his sudden and unexpected death. Only other suicide loss survivors can understand the horrific challenges we continue to face. The beauty of Alliance of Hope is that it is available 24/7. It allows us to find others with similar losses because those are the ones we can connect with most – each loss comes with its own set of issues. I don’t know where I would be without Alliance of Hope.
I found this site while searching for answers after I lost my son to suicide April 14, 2017. I have found this site to have many kind loving people who thru their own journey have found words of wisdom to share with me and others. To go through losing a loved one to suicide is so awful, hard and lonely. Having somewhere to go anytime of the day and reach out to others helps a little with not feeling so lonely . I am so grateful for this website!
I stumbled across Alliance of Hope a week after my sister took her life after doing a search for support forums for those who have lost someone to suicide. I received responses very quickly after I posted on AOH and have found all the members and moderators to be full of compassion empathy and understanding, something that is so needed when you lose a loved one in such a tragic way. I have yet to find any in person therapy or support groups close to where I live because I reside in the desert and everything is spread out and takes a long time to commute to. I am so grateful for AllianceofHope.com for making me feel so at home and cared about. There are times my grief hits me hard and it's such a comfort to have somewhere to express my sadness day or night.
Alliance of Hope has been like a lighthouse in the raging storm of what it is to lose someone you love to suicide. Even before I was ready to join the community I came and stayed on this site, everyday and sometimes all day, just to get me through the first three to four weeks.
I needed help. I needed understanding. I needed love, acceptance and reassurance that this experience was just as awful as I thought it was, but that I would be okay. Alliance of Hope gave me all of that and more.
It is a grace by itself, and yet that it is a free resource makes it a salvation. I am one of those who lives pay check-to-paycheck. I would never have even considered trying to find space in my budget to help me with what is a truly, near unbearable grief, because I simply wouldn't be able to afford it. I have needed this support more than I could have known and that it was available to me on this website just makes me feel lucky. Lucky to be heard. Lucky not to be alone.
I am so glad that Alliance of Hope exists. No one wishes this site was necessary, but everyday I'm grateful that it is there anyway.