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Causes: Counseling, Mental Health

Mission: Kindness matters, and to the more than 5 million people around the world who lose a loved one to suicide each year, it matters a lot. We provide healing and compassionate support during the lonely and tumultuous aftermath of suicide. We help people survive suicide loss, and go beyond "just surviving," to lead productive lives filled with meaning and joy.

Results: Every day, people write to say the Alliance of Hope is their "lifeline" or "saved my life." Since 2008, more than 15,000 people have joined our forum, exchanging more than 375,000 communications. It is estimated that for each member who actively participates in our forum, 7 to 10 others read and get value, but do not join or post.

Target demographics: Survivors of Suicide loss

Direct beneficiaries per year: In 2019 we hosted more than 17,000 survivors of suicide loss (and directly served 2,237 new survivors) on our online forum, which operates as a 24/7 support group. Every day, 7-10 newly bereaved survivors join the forum, and more than 500 tap in for support. Our website hosted millions of visits from people seeking information and support in the complex emotional aftermath of suicide. We also answered hundreds of calls and emails requests for information and support from survivors, clinicians, students, media, and the general public.

Programs: Alliance of Hope is the leading online resource for people bereaved by suicide. Our services are developed and supervised by Ronnie Susan Walker, a licensed mental health practitioner. They are anchored in best practices, and answer a need not served by any other organization. Programs include: 1) Clinically moderated community forum. 2) Website with resources for new survivors, blog, bookstore, and memorial section. 3) Low-cost Skype and phone consultations for new survivors. 4) Facebook page with original content and messages of support each month.

Community Stories

414 Stories from Volunteers, Donors & Supporters

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Client Served

Rating: 5

My Only son, Jason, died by Suicide six months ago at the age of 41. Married, four-year-old daughter, professional, athlete, healthy, many friends, constant smile, great son, beautiful home. Everything. When he took his life tragically, I totally fell apart. I searched for help and support from my Primary Care Doctor, a therapist, anyone. Friends tried to help. But I needed help from people who have been where I was and am. I went online and found this lifesaving website, Alliance of Hope. I reached out immediately, told Jason’s story, and asked for help from anyone and everyone who could relate to my state of mind and the loss of a child. I was overwhelmed with the amount of responses I received and the comfort each and every person was to me then, now, and will continue to be as I travel this horrendous journey of grief for my son. This is an amazing organization and is such a light at the end of our dark tunnel of grief. If I were a wealthy woman, I would certainly support this treasure of an organization. I am blessed to have found them in my darkest hours. Thank you for being there now and in the future. ❤️

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Client Served

Rating: 4

I lost my nephew-son to suicide in August 2019. I tried to find a support group here in my small community but wasn’t able to find anything. Called several counseling facility’s but nothing available. I found Alliance of Hope about a month later and have found a place to go for support and even counseling over the phone/computer. Reading others stories and posting my own had helped carry me through and lightened the heaviness that comes with a death by suicide. I’ve also received an education concerning the complicated web of this mental illness. I’ve discovered suicide is not a respecter of persons and touches the lives of just about everyone at one time or another.
Thank you for this forum and website

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS like my new AOH family. I have gone to a counselor I like and really respect. She has helped me identify where I am in the grief cycle but my AOH family have validated how I feel AND ENCOURAGE me by their authenticity and vulnerability. I love my family, but would not want to wake them when I can’t sleep, when I can’t breathe, but AOH is available 24/7 without fear of waking anyone up.
I felt lost and confused as to where I fit. My title is Kaleb’s Gma- but our house was his stable home. AOH recognizes I am affected also.
I have so many words for this Site. Right now my AOH family helps me breathe
I have shared with my Family members. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Bridget Stovall

2 Michelle W.9

General Member of the Public

Rating: 1

I lost my son to suicide. Sorry, I just didn't find the organization was very helpful. I understand they need donations, but felt that was the center of the organization, not actually helping people. The forum was difficult to use. If you wanted to talk with some one, counseling was $75/hour.

I just felt overall the site and people, were condescending.

Losing some one to suicide, shouldn't be about the money.

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Ronnie-walker 07/08/2019

Hi Michelle, I’m so sorry for the loss of your son and that you did not find AOH helpful. I hope you find the healing support you need. As you can see from the hundreds of 5-star reviews on this site, your experience is unusual. The Alliance of Hope serves thousands of loss survivors and many call our forum their “lifeline.” We provide extremely cost-effective postvention support, but like any nonprofit, we need to raise funds to sustain our services. Perhaps you joined at a time when we were asking for our community’s support. We are deeply grateful for the individuals and organizations whose partnership has allowed us to expand our services for survivors over the last decade. Without them, we would not exist. We wish you the best in your healing journey.

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Professional with expertise in this field

Rating: 5

Since 1983 Friends for Survival, based in California, has been providing peer bereavement support to grieving persons affected by a suicide death. There were very limited resources for this grieving segment of our community. We have been honored to provide our services now to about 10,000 families.

We now offer our families the additional resource of Alliance of Hope. Their website is comprehensive and truly relates to the needs of persons trying to cope with such a traumatic death that can traumatize persons for a very long time. Many people do not have resources in their area but Alliance of Hope is available 24/7 and this service can save lives and allow persons to connect with encouragement and hope for the future. We distribute their brochures to every new family that contacts us.

Marilyn Koenig
Executive Director

2 Lisa L.9

Client Served

Rating: 5

Loss to suicide completely turns all you think you know about the world and people you love completely upside down. I have used the forums of AOH for close to three years trying to come to terms with and navigate the loss of a beloved family member. Nothing could have prepared my family for this loss, but AOH has helped me find a way to survive it.
Still a work in process, and I have received valuable support at every mile of this very long road at AOH.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

The Alliance of Hope for suicide loss survivors helped me recover following the devastating loss of my husband. Losing someone this way is the beginning of a journey that most people don’t understand. I’m grateful this organization allowed me to heal and grow in my own way.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I was in shock and broken when I found the Alliance of Hope. Life as I knew it was over. But people there understood what I was going through. They showed me how to live again. I don’t know how much that is worth in dollars, but to me it was worth a lot. Everything.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

There are not enough words to explain how this forum has supported me, given me gentle insights and even some good chuckles!
Grieving a loved one who died by suicide is not like other grief. There are many, many layers to this. Although society is slowly becoming enlightened, it's not fast enough when this tragedy is yours. It's a lonely and terrifying road. But, it helps beyond measure when you have people who truly understand. People who are always there. People who have walked along this journey and extend their encouragement and wisdom to you. I am thankful for the forum.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I don't know how I would have survived without the help of this group. Most "in-person" support groups meet maybe once or twice a month. This group is always there for me 24/7. I have always felt respected and validated. My needs and questions has always been met. It is a forum full of compassion.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I feel deep gratitude towards AOH and those members who were and are there when I need most. There was always someone there providing support to members who need to write out their feelings and seek comfort and support, be it the monitor, the members themselves, the administrators, etc. I feel safe there.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I found Alliance of hope after losing my dear brother. I was in shock, desperate and lonely. The staff answered me quickly and gave me comfort and support when I needed the most. They were wonderful. I don’t know what I would have done without Alliance. There’s always someone there to help you out.
The forum is easy accessible and convenient when you feel low. We are all like a big family to help each other. We are all survivors. Thank you so much for your support to the wonderful staff and friends in Alliance.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

Suicide loss is utterly devastating and suicide loss survivors can feel isolated and misunderstood by others around them. AOH forum is a safe haven, a compassionate place of understanding and hope where you can connect with others, know you are understood and not alone. The excellent moderators and administrators of the forum are all suicide loss survivors and strive to keep the forum a place of kindness and understanding and are mindful of keeping it a healing environment, so there are membership guidelines and members are expected to follow them to ensure this healing environment is maintained. Having been a member for a good number of years, I am surprised and question the 1 star reviews I see here - they seem very out of place considering the number of very positive 5 star reviews and the thousands of suicide loss survivors who have found AOH a lifeline.

8 Surviving.1

Client Served

Rating: 5

A few months following my partner's suicide, I was looking for ways to help me in dealing with the grief, guilt, and all the other emotions. Luckily, I found Alliance of Hope and since that day I'm on the forum almost daily. The support, compassion, and understanding I found here far exceeded my expectations. I never imagined the connections that I would make with people from around the world who literally opened their arms to me during the darkest days of my life. It doesn't matter if you're straight, gay, male or female; if you loss your child, spouse, sibling, partner, best friend, or whatever ... everyone here truly cares and offers insight to help navigate the whirlwind of emotions that come with losing a loved one to suicide.

Sadly, I read one review where she didn't feel included due to being queer. All I can say is that as a gay man, I have felt VERY included and supported by the administrators, moderators, and other members of this forum. Not once have I ever been discriminated against nor "shunned" because of this one very minor part of who I am. Suicide knows no boundaries on who it effects ... and this forum knows no boundaries on whom they help.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I found this wonderful website 2 weeks after losing my son. I am in therapy, I have support at home and am not without resources to aid in my coping. Alliance of Hope has by far been the most helpful tool in dealing with my traumatic and horrific loss. I have found a place of solace with others who, sadly, know what I'm going through. My feelings and experiences are met with understanding and genuine concern from an incredibly dedicated group of survivors. There is always someone available to share my pain and offer me heartfelt care. I can't say enough positive things about AOH.

8 juliex2

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

I found Aoh after losing my son a little over two years ago and I continue to come here daily for the support, understanding and validation that losing someone this way causes. Those in my personal life feel I should be done grieving. Moved on. Fortunately they do not understand how shattering and rocked to the core losing someone this way causes. Unfortunately the members here understand all too well. They are the most compassionate, kind, wise and validating group of people I have ever encountered. When support is needed they will lend out a hand and if support is requested they will reach out knowing someone will grab theirs to get through those difficult times that can come out of the blue. Honestly do not know if I could have survived without this forum. Forever grateful.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I can not tell you what Alliance of Hope has meant to me. After losing my son to suicide I was all alone to deal with the aftermath and complexity that comes with the grief with suicide. Unfortunately those around you do not want to discuss or hear of your loss. They do not understand how difficult it is to work through the loss of someone you love who has taken their own life. There are over 12,000 members unfortunately on the site with too many members joining weekly. But once you introduce yourself you will be met with compassion and understanding. It is a judgment free community of support from people who have all loss someone to suicide. I can guarantee you this that if I did not find Alliance I would not be where I am today. I am early on in my journey but with the help of my virtual travelers I will heal to the best of my abilities.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I found this wonderful safe place to share my thoughts and feelings two years ago after losing my dad to suicide. It was the only place that I felt I was understood during the darkest time of my life. The members there reach out consistently and offer hope for healing and support all while managing their own grief. It is a truly beautiful thing to witness such kindness compassion and understanding from such a horrible tragedy. They are amazing warriors and I am so very thankful for the site resources and forum that AOH provides in addition to their services.

James L.1

Client Served

Rating: 1

DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT go to this website for help with healing, for help with loss, for help with any of your issues related to grief.

DO NOT DO IT.

The moderators and management on this site are self-serving, they have their own agendas and that does NOT include true help for loss survivors.

I can almost guarantee you will NOT get any help here, it is a waste of time.

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Ronnie-walker 04/23/2019

We regret this reviewer felt the moderators and management of AOH were self-serving. We work hard to maintain a safe and supportive atmosphere for those experiencing traumatic grief and challenges related to suicide loss. On occasion, someone will conflate serious mental illness requiring multiple hospitalizations, and addiction issues with grief. This often leads to continued disregard for and violation of the guidelines that allow our community to function. – On such occasions, we provide links and referrals to online resources and service providers better suited to their needs.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

This organization has truly played an incredible role in my healing after the loss of my husband. I have not the words to express my gratitude for this organization.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

TAS
I have been on the Alliance of Hope daily for almost 4 years. I have never felt more welcomed and supported. I don't know how I would have survived the loss of my husband without the compassion and support of everyone on here. It is one of the best run support groups that I've seen. These members have become much more than just faceless, nameless people. They understand what I'm going more completely than other people in my life. The advise I've received has enabled me to navigate my loss. I'm glad I can be there for others and other people were there for me.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

There are no words to describe how grateful I am to Alliance of Hope for their support after my father died by suicide. Confused, alone, and in so much pain, they offered compassion and understanding like no other. The loss of a loved one to suicide is so very difficult. Alliance of Hope gave me a safe space to talk about the things I needed to talk about. This is so important for survivors.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

Grief support groups for suicide loss survivors is unavailable in my community and I found Alliance of Hope to be easily accessible, always available, much more than a meeting once a week for an hour or two. Members are supportive and understand the devastating and complicated loss of suicide. My raw emotions surrounding the death of my child are always met with compassion and kindness.

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Volunteer

Rating: 5

The aftermath of a suicide is not something to be taken lightly and those who haven't been touched by such a devastating experience, are often not the right person to help the bereaved. To understand what the survivor goes through, you unfortunately would need to have the personal experience of losing somebody to suicide. I found that it is crucial for a survivor’s future path to get guidance from another who has worn those shoes. Without judgement, they are able to understand the extremity of emotions, fears and anxiety that follows such an event. Sharing a piece of your heart with others are more healing than advice shouted from the side lines.
Alliance of Hope is a resting place for the broken hearted.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I stumbled upon the Alliance Of Hope a week after losing my husband to suicide. I was completely devastated and overwhelmed. I was unable to find support in my area. I was welcomed with open arms and found a port in the storm. I clung to the words of more seasoned survivors who offered hope and encouragement. I now had access to free support, 24/7. I honestly do not know where I would be without this amazing community. Thanks to Ronnie Walker, the staff and all the wonderful forum members, I began to find my feet and believe that we can and do, go beyond just surviving. AOH is a wonderful safe haven where survivors can gather. There is strength in numbers. The support here is phenominal!

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Client Served

Rating: 5

Found the Alliance of Hope a few months after losing my son. Even with tons of family, friends and community support .....still I was feeling my intense emotions were too much for family and friends, counseling too infrequent to meet my needs.... even with all the supporters I felt isolated. I found AOH one evening and I just cried as i knew immediately i had found others that understood this horrid loss, this trauma to my soul. I felt heard. I felt embraced. I felt caring. I truly attribute much of my healing to AOH. Writing posts and reading the posts of others helped me feel so much less alone. Truly I am not sure where i would be without AOH. Real people, real emotions, very real support. Thank you Ronnie for creating such a sacred place of support.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

The Alliance of Hope saved my life after my son took his life. The help I received was critical to my survival. If not for this organization, I would have never heard the term “suicide loss survivor”. I found out that I could be a survivor and now I consider myself to be one.

The support of the community is essential to navigating this complicated grief. The information and counseling through the site is second to none. I am grateful for it every day.

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Client Served

Rating: 1

Moderators are poorly trained and unqualified to interfere in people's grief. They repeatedly invalidated my feelings, are inappropriately critical of emotions, and insensitive. They break all the basic rules of what one should not say to someone grieving and are too self-congratulatory to examine their own shortcomings. This forum is not queer friendly and I felt traumatized by the treatment I received from culturally insensitive staff. I went there seeking healing and intended to pay for their counseling and donate, but within a week, I became alarmed by their incompetence and found myself awake for hours, upset over their gross insensitivity, both to my grief and to my need to identify as queer and seek queer companionship. I deeply regret stumbling on this organization as they are utterly clueless about gay issues.

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Ronnie-walker 09/30/2018

Alliance of Hope welcomes and includes members of every community including the LGBTQ community. We are sorry this person did not find the help she was seeking on our forum. Our forum moderators receive extensive training and are hand-picked for their demonstrated empathy, compassion and ability to provide hope after suicide to a diverse community. We are saddened that our best efforts to welcome and support this individual were met with anger, cynicism and accusations that we were insensitive to her needs. We wish her well and hope she finds the support and understanding she is seeking.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I found AOH about 2 weeks after my beautiful son took his life. My family and I are participating in counseling and grief support groups. I have not posted on blogs but read them and cry daily. The support and understanding mean everything to me. I am devastated by my son’s passing and feel supported by the compassionate guidance from AOH in moving through grief.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I found AOH a week after my son took his life. This was 3 months tomorrow. I don’t know what I would have done without the forums. I was a total mess as his death was unexpected and I felt like I couldn’t go on. With the support from members I’ve made it this far. I log in several times a day and find the care, love, advice and empathy amazing. Everyone on AOH ‘gets’ how I feel no matter who they’ve lost. I’m so lucky to have found AOH as we have nothing that compares in the UK.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I joined AOH 2 months after my 24 year old son committed suicide the day before his 25th birthday. AHO is a safe place to come and feel accepted. A place to pour out your sadness, anger,helplessness where someone listens and responds with words of kindness, caring and support.
I credit AOH along with my therapist, family and friends in being able to survive this first year after my son's death.

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Volunteer

Rating: 5

Finding a group where the depth of your pain and loss is truly understood, isn't easy. Having a go-to-place that is always available 24/7, is almost unreal. Having found such a caring group of strangers some time after my child took his life, was being welcomed into a loving home. Lots of tears and hugs are shared, and healing truly happens here.

4 MaryBeth D.1

Client Served

Rating: 5

Since I lost my husband in 2016 to suicide, my life has been turned upside down and inside out. This is the most traumatic thing that’s happened to me. I have no family in the area and I’m all alone now with just my dogs. AOH has been a wonderful help! Having support from others who really understand this type of loss is extremely helpful. I’m grateful I have AOH to turn to in my many times of need.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

Following the suicides of my mother and step father, this group helped me more than words could ever describe. I was completely lost in grief. I didn't know up from down, left from, black from white. Everything felt backwards and inside out. Like I had been thrown off the world completely. Through sharing and talking to other suicide loss survivors, I managed to cope with the insurmountable loss and continue to do so today, 2 years after they've passed. Without this group, I would still be lost. AOH saved my life and made living bearable when nothing else could.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

This community of survivors of suicide loss has offered invaluable support to me since losing my son almost 3 years ago. This members of the group are always willing to offer compassion and understanding, even while dealing with their own painful experiences and deep grief. Though I am fortunate enough to live in an area with a number of in-person support groups, the Alliance of Hope has been available whenever I needed it, with people willing to listen and provide solace. I am extremely grateful to the group's founder, Ronnie Walker and to all of the good people that are part of AOH.

4 Kelly B.5

Client Served

Rating: 5

My 24 year old son hung himself right before Christmas 2016. He didnt live near me and I searched frantically for 2 weeks trying to find him knowing something was wrong. Jan 5 2017 I was contacted by police , he was hanging for about 2 weeks in his closet. I was of course devastated . My brain was on fire. I found this sight. I wrote everything at all hours of the night going crazy wondering why, how, and the guilt. And I found the most kindhearted moderators , whom never judged my son or I. And it gave great peace to all those questions and thoughts that consumed my brain. Im not 100% and not sure I will ever be but this sight saved my life cus I wanted to go with him in the beginning. Awesome people here that truly understand what its like to loose a child to suicide. Thank GOD for Alliance of Hope.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

After losing my son in 2015 to suicide, the people in my life tried their hardest to understand what I was going through, but despite their love, and patience and support; how could they understand? I finally found Alliance of Hope 2 months later. It was this website where I found others who had lost loved ones to suicide, and they truly understood what I was experiencing. From the trauma of finding my son, to the little baby steps starting to put my life back together. I have yet to post something on this site that no one else has experienced. The members cry with me, and share my accomplishments. No matter what time of day or night I post,others are there to listen and share their journey. Three years later I still turn to AOH, and can say, that this website has been critical in my healing and journey through grief. I am forever grateful for this website, for saving my life, helping heal my broken heart . Alliance of Hope saves lives, and heals hearts. If you are a suicide loss survivior, I invite you to our forums where you will feel understood and unconditionally supported.

3 Shannon P.2

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

This site was something I just stumbled upon in May 2018, while desperately searching for some help after my best friend's suicide. This site has truly been my lifeline. I'm not sure where I'd be without it. I recommended it to my friends and family.
While everyone there has gone through such tragedy, it's a beautiful thing to be able reach out 24/7 and always have someone there to talk you through your darkest moments.
The moderators are wonderful and the resources are truly helpful.
This site is a Godsend.
Shannon

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

My 19 year old son died in 2014. The very worst unimaginable pain was assuaged slightly when I found AOH. It literally saved me. Sharing my thoughts, feelings, with others who understood was the only way I could heal... four years later I'm still here trying to help others. Thank God for AOH!

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Client Served

Rating: 5

This site has been so helpful and instrumental in my coping with my husband's recent suicide. The warmth, understanding , sharing and helpful advice of other caring members has gotten me through many dark hours. The members understand the complicated and extraordinary grief and circumstances we are each going through and are there to help or simply to listen so you are not feeling all alone. I cannot say enough good things about it. It is especially helpful that those whose losses are more distant are there to provide encouragement and relate their experiences in things getting somewhat better as time passes. I am very grateful for this site and the way the site is moderated and organized.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

This site has been a lifesaver for me. I lost my husband to suicide and felt as if I had no reason to live and no will to keep going. No one in my day to day life seemed to be able to relate to my grieving. Finding Alliance of Hope for Suicide Loss Survivors was so overwhelmingly comforting and continues to bring me peace on a daily basis. It helps tremendously to have a place you can log onto any time day or night, weekends and weekdays, and holidays. The support is reassuring and to know you aren't alone has helped me in getting through the devastating loss. This site is absolutely wonderful and the members are so supportive of one another. It truly makes my heart happy when I log on to be able to read and reply to others who know exactly what I am going through.

2 StayGold

Client Served

Rating: 5

The AOH has proven to be a lifeline to me after I lost my son to suicide. In the aftermath of this traumatizing experience I realized that there is not much out there in terms of support for people like me - a suicide loss survivor. The AOH forum is like stepping in to a warm safe place where you can escape to a world where people TRULY understand what it's like to be a survivor.

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

When my husband took his life, I was broken and shocked beyond words. His death left me without my best friend, companion, love and my young children without a father. Other losses came steadily in all areas of life.
Mourning this loss is a unique and complex. I have known many losses in my life; nothing compares to this. The isolation and stigma are very real. The people I expected to be the most supportive disappeared after the last casserole dish was returned. I have learned this is not a unique experience. So, where does a devastated person turn? Thank God for the Alliance of Hope. A member quickly learns that any guilt, fear, a host of other emotions & experiences are not that unique. Not in this world. They're still painful, but what a relief to find comfort & understanding! Those who have built lives of meaning after this loss, share experiences and hope. They prove a real life is possible. Support and help are here 24/7. At some of the hardest times, holidays, the trained moderators are available for support.
There aren't enough words to express how much the Alliance of Hope means to me. How do you explain what being able to live and having hope for a full life means?

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I lost my husband to suicide. I was going through a very difficult time when a good friend of mine suggested I find a group to connect with who have also lost someone to sucide. The Alliance of Hope for Suicide Survivors Forum has goes above and beyond my expectations. At first I was afraid about broadcasting my personal thoughts and feelings, however, the members on the forum have been very caring, supportive, and understanding for me. They helped me feel comfortable when I did not. The members on the Forum have given me a place to share with them and they understand and know how painful my circumstances are because they have had similar experiences and can relate to my feelings. Now, I feel better in my skin and I can also send love and caring thoughts to others in need which makes me feel good about myself.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

The forum on Alliance of Hope for Suicide Loss Survivors (AOH) has proven to be a tremendous resource for me during a very difficult time in my life. I have met people on the site who have experiences similar to mine, and who have helped me in countless ways. I know there is someone to share with online virtually any hour of any day, and that person will be supportive and understanding. I have also found satisfaction in helping others as best I can. AOH is a blessing.

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

As the one-year anniversary of my 17-year-old son's suicide is slowly and quickly approaching, I look back and cannot be grateful enough for the lifelines I still have left. Alongside my only surviving daughter, local support groups, my psychologist and walks with a fellow suicide loss survivor, Alliance of Hope continue standing as an absolute necessity to my survival. It is only within this tiny circle that I feel safe to share this most challenging journey that have twists and turns when least expected. No other family member, friends, coworkers, etc. could even remotely understand. Some expect me to keep a stiff upper lip and move on as if life is still great and grand. This unreasonable expectation came from some almost immediately after his sudden and unexpected death. Only other suicide loss survivors can understand the horrific challenges we continue to face. The beauty of Alliance of Hope is that it is available 24/7. It allows us to find others with similar losses because those are the ones we can connect with most – each loss comes with its own set of issues. I don’t know where I would be without Alliance of Hope.

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

I found this site while searching for answers after I lost my son to suicide April 14, 2017. I have found this site to have many kind loving people who thru their own journey have found words of wisdom to share with me and others. To go through losing a loved one to suicide is so awful, hard and lonely. Having somewhere to go anytime of the day and reach out to others helps a little with not feeling so lonely . I am so grateful for this website!

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I stumbled across Alliance of Hope a week after my sister took her life after doing a search for support forums for those who have lost someone to suicide. I received responses very quickly after I posted on AOH and have found all the members and moderators to be full of compassion empathy and understanding, something that is so needed when you lose a loved one in such a tragic way. I have yet to find any in person therapy or support groups close to where I live because I reside in the desert and everything is spread out and takes a long time to commute to. I am so grateful for AllianceofHope.com for making me feel so at home and cared about. There are times my grief hits me hard and it's such a comfort to have somewhere to express my sadness day or night.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

Alliance of Hope has been like a lighthouse in the raging storm of what it is to lose someone you love to suicide. Even before I was ready to join the community I came and stayed on this site, everyday and sometimes all day, just to get me through the first three to four weeks.

I needed help. I needed understanding. I needed love, acceptance and reassurance that this experience was just as awful as I thought it was, but that I would be okay. Alliance of Hope gave me all of that and more.

It is a grace by itself, and yet that it is a free resource makes it a salvation. I am one of those who lives pay check-to-paycheck. I would never have even considered trying to find space in my budget to help me with what is a truly, near unbearable grief, because I simply wouldn't be able to afford it. I have needed this support more than I could have known and that it was available to me on this website just makes me feel lucky. Lucky to be heard. Lucky not to be alone.

I am so glad that Alliance of Hope exists. No one wishes this site was necessary, but everyday I'm grateful that it is there anyway.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I am so grateful for this loving, caring community. I never thought I would need to find such a group however, here I am. I have gotten so much support just from reading other's posts and from responses on posts that I have written. I don't post a lot, mainly because it is sometimes hard to find the words, but when I do, I know that there are many people that fully understand the pain and can encourage me. Without this group, I'm not sure I could cope as well as I have!

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

AOH has been an exceptional help for me to feel not so alone. There is nothing I could really do to thank everyone for support .
In my family we were not told what happened,just that she died.I was a child of 7,when my mother committed suicide and 3 months before took the life of my baby brother...AOL even has a special forum for murder/love suicide. Sad but so soft to land my feelings here. My dear dad had so much love and concern yet could never speak of this. Hurts to imagine his hurt. Eventually as an adult I tried to get some answers as I have never really grieved ,yet felt so tangled up inside. Finding AOL has given me a listening ear in a way not to feel so alone and that my feelings are valid and it is ok to talk of them with others in this community of sadness from loss of this kind. It's like an oasis in a desert. A sip of water to help me through some difficult feelings. Untangling my emotions after so many years is also like a breath of fresh air. I still cannot talk to anyone face to face about this, where I have tried in the past to not feeling they understand.so this gives me the privacy in some ways to face myself with kind people.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

Alliance of Hope has been a tremendous resource for me in the aftermath of my son's suicide. The forum site is well run and moderated, which equates to making it a safe place to share. The forum members provide so much understanding and suppport that I was not finding in other places. There is even skype counseling available if you need it. This organization provides connections to other resources as well - like local support groups, books to read etc. I can not say enough positive things about Alliance of Hope. It is sad for when new members join, for the reason they have to be there, but I am glad this resource is there for them.

1 Mary487

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

I lost friends family members to suicide I think of them and miss them daily I tried many times myself but it never worked not a day goes by I xobt think of them and want to be with them but then I think of how it affected us and how my fAmily would feel how it may hurt them

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General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

My son took his life in September 2014 on what would have been his first day of high school. I found AoH about 2 months later. I watched the forum and read posts for a couple weeks and discovered there were so many people like me -- trying to heal, trying to help family members heal, trying get re-grounded. I joined a couple weeks later and have found unparalleled encouragement, support, healing, wisdom, and hope.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

After losing our dad by suicide in January 2015, I was searching online for support groups for myself and my brother in our respective communities. I found weekly meetings in his area, but where I live meetings are only held monthly. During that search, I found Alliance of Hope for Suicide Loss Survivors and joined immediately. Unfortunately a few days later, my brother also succumbed to suicide. AoH was an incredible support during those devastating days. Reading and writing posts there kept me going in the following days, weeks, and months. Alliance of Hope is an invaluable resource for the loved ones of those who die by suicide.

7

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

The only thing that has remotely helped so far. So grateful that this site exists. Losing someone you love to suicide is so isolating. This site reaches far and wide to show you, you are very much not alone.

7

Volunteer

Rating: 5

I accidently stumbled across AOH on the web after being blindsided by the suicide of my son in 2014. Everyone greeted with me with open compassionate hearts. Family, friends, and church members had no idea of what it was like to go through suicide loss. I was all alone, until I found AOH that morning. I immediately realized that yes, I could survive this and someone did understand! Here was real help & hope, not just the standard clichés you get when someone dies. And someone is always here 24/7 to reach out. I will forever be grateful to AOH.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I am happy to share my experiences with the life-saving nonprofit, The Alliance of Hope.
As you might expect, I experienced the greatest shock and the greatest pain of my life when my husband died. There were no warnings. He showed no classic signs of suicide, with which I am familiar. I am surrounded by a loving and supportive family. I have an excellent therapist and Doctor. But, I needed something more and I wasn't sure what that was.
In-person support groups were not an option for me.
I spent a lot of time reading articles on the possible causes of suicide, reviewed statistics, read studies. All this reading left me feeling more terrified and alone.
Somehow I tripped across this site. I was immediately relieved to learn I wasn't losing my mind, to see others truly understood.
This site is monitored 24/7 by trained moderators. There is no fee to join. You don't even have to "sign up"; you have still access to information & help. All are anonymous here. The website is concise and precise. It is easy to navigate.
The first time I posted, I was overwhelmed by the support and genuine care I received. I also learned some good tips that were easy to follow to help myself. I became a more active member, posting questions, concerns, deepest fears.
There is a lot of mystery and misinformation about suicuide. Whether it's a news report or a movie, one is lead to believe suicide results from one singular event. This adds to the confusion and horror to those directly touched by suicide.
It's right that people who are suicidal have access to immediate help and hopefully receive it.

There's one group that's overlooked - that's us. Those left behind in the wake of this tragic loss. Professionals in the medical and counseling fields often not know what to do with us or how to help. More isolation and fear is often the result.

AOH addresses the needs and concerns of us. I could find no other online resource for those who lost a loved one due to suicide.
There are many worthy nonprofits out there. But, our group is a solo group that tends to the needs to such a vulnerable group. There are no walk-a-thons or ribbons to "raise awareness" for us.
If you have lost a loved one because of suicide, this is the ONLY online resource you will need. We understand.
If you are trying to help a child, friend, coworker that has been touched by this tragedy, please visit for insight.
It is not an exaggeration to say AOH saved my life and, by extension, the lives of my children.
Thanks for reading this!

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Client Served

Rating: 5

As is often people's experience, I found AOH at a time when I most needed a compassionate online community of people who shared my uniquely life-altering experience. I was immediately enfolded by compassion, empathy and a feeling of safety to express even my darkest emotions without judgement. Responses to my posts were generous and timely providing me with strength that I could hardly muster myself.

Members on AOH are at various points in their journeys, from the very new to many years out. I found there was/is something to be learned from each post as I read them. There is never any pressure to respond or write a post-any person is welcome to simply take what they need until they are ready to participate. Everyone can feel comfortable according to "where they are" at any particular moment.

The Alliance of Hope Forum is a collective consciousness on a shared journey to try to turn back into life after the anguish of losing a loved one to death by suicide. There is at least as much light, if not more, as there is darkness in the sharing of each person's struggles and accomplishments, large and small. It feels like hope eventually becomes part of every personal story.

The AOH Forum is moderated with professionalism and attention to all of the details surrounding a public Internet Forum. Infrequent issues that come up are addressed immediately so that members feel as secure as possible. Navigation on the site is user-friendly.

The AOH founder and Clinician, Ronnie Walker, is amazing in every way as are all staff members!

5

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

I found my brother hanging in the attic in 2012. My life fell apart. I found that when I talked to people they either walked away or didn't really understand. I discovered Alliance of Hope and find that this site is a great help at times when I am low and talking freely with people who have gone through similar experiences helps me offload and get through it. I also feel that helping others gives me a sense that I can be strong despite the trauma of surviving my loss.

5

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

My beautiful daughter completed suicide shortly before Christmas, 2015. I discovered the Alliance of Hope in January, 2016, when I was laid up, recovering from multiple surgeries. I have read their stories and listened to what others who are going through what I am, or have traveled this terrible path longer than I have. I can honestly attest that this site has kept me alive up until now, as at first I only wished to be with my deceased child. There is no way I could have made it without the knowledge and understanding of others who have lived through the aftermath of a suicide, all of us suffering these tragic losses of such dearly beloved family and friends. It is so crucial to we survivors to have a place which offers this empathy and understanding, and the Alliance of Hope surely provides that.

7

Client Served

Rating: 5

My nephew completed suicide in March 2015 and my husband in June 2015. My whole life came crashing down around me and I was devastated. I also lost friendships I thought I'd always have, I lost my home, my job, family, and I lost hope.

Out of everything I lost, hope was what I needed most. Without hope, I couldn't start again, rebuild, heal, or find a new normal. When I found the Alliance of Hope for Suicide Loss Survivors, I found the hope I was searching for! I also found others who understood, caring friends, and support any time of the day or night. I absolutely would not be where I am today without AOH. It is my safe place amongst the chaos of my life.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I felt so alone. I needed support. When I found this place and the wonderful people there, I finally felt connected to others who understood my pain. I met open, honest people who share their stories in hopes of helping someone else feel better. I found acceptance, connectedness, care, and most of all; hope that I can make it through my pain like the people who have gone before me.

7

Volunteer

Rating: 5

After losing my son to suicide I was without hope of ever being able to fully join life again. Traditional therapy left me feeling a disconnect as the counselor was not familiar with the unique challenges that come with losing a loved one to suicide. I found the Alliance of Hope 6-7 months into my grief. For the first time I felt not only heard, but understood, I sobbed at that realization. The Alliance of Hope provided me a safe and caring environment to voice my grief and to honor my healing. Recently I wrote a post that summarizes my thoughts of the Alliance of Hope. "I think the beautiful and certainly unique quality of the Alliance Of Hope is that it is a living, breathing place where grieving and living come together to offer hope." I will forever be grateful to Ronnie Walker for her vision and hope.




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Client Served

Rating: 5

I lost my wife to suicide earlier this year. A friend found and mentioned Alliance of Hope to me. The Alliance of Hope has been a critical part of my healing process. The people there have helped me through some difficult times. I would not be where I am without this organization.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

I lost both my spouse and son six years ago. AOH was, and continues to be, the one community I can turn to when I feel unconnected. AOH provides survivors with a desperately needed sense of belonging. In this community, we are never judged and always understood. In a world where survivors often feel isolated, alien and painfully alone, AOH is a safe haven.

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Client Served

Rating: 5

The Alliance of Hope Site has been the only place I have felt safe and understood since losing my family to suicide. I can go there at any time: day, night, holiday and find respite from the undescribable sense of loneliness I feel as a survivor. Despite the tragic reason for the site's existence and the anguish, anger and pain of those who post, the moderators somehow find a way to maintain a sense of gentleness, peace and hope.

5

Volunteer

Rating: 5

I lost my youngest son to suicide in December 2012. Some nine months later I found the Alliance of Hope forum. Not only had I found a place where I was understood, where I was not alone but where there was a message of hope. Hope that I could go beyond merely surviving and feel happiness again. Hope that I could again contribute in a positive way in this world.

I live in regional Australia the availability of services in my area experienced in this type of traumatic loss was zero. The Alliance of Hope fast became my lifeline. The support I received from this community is the reason I am where I'm at today.

Now nearly three years later I serve as a moderator on this forum keeping it the same safe, nonjudgmental place and offering support to the many members of this unique, though hurting community.

5

General Member of the Public

Rating: 5

Alliance of Hope has been the single most helpful resource after the loss of my 21 year old son to suicide in March 2014. It is a place of compassion and understanding--everyone "gets" the unique grief brought by this kind of loss. It is a lifeline and, indeed, a place of hope.