My Nonprofit Reviews

It's 3:42 am....Wed morning, November 26, 2014. Once again I find it difficult to sleep, witch always makes me think. Tonight seems to be somewhat quieter. My thoughts weren't racing as I stared at the ceiling ...AND so I'd like to share my testimony....referring to this as a review somehow just doesn't describe how I really feel about the Angelsl of Hope family.

Missing my Dear and Loving husband Michael, who just passed January 13, of this year, I sit in bed and unable to sleep, I reminisce of our lives together and all the love we shared, missing his presence but knowing and taking comfort that he no longer suffers from indescribable pain allows me to rest peacefully some nights.
Only God knows why he was called home so soon.

The last few years have been very difficult for me and my family.
My husband was diagnosed with Squamous cell carcinoma (cancer in the esophagus) in the spring of 2012...just writing that last sentence makes me teary eyed... As I reflect on my memories from first hearing this tragic and unbelievable information, I realize that God has always held my hand and guided me through some very difficult times in my life...Always knowing just when to send Angels to help me be strong when I am at my weakest moment. As my husband endured radiation, chemo therapy,malnutrition and ultimately a very complicated surgery , I can testify that watching our now, eight year old daughter watching her daddy go through this had been one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. My daughter and her father were two peas in a pod. He was her best playmate, she now often talks about all the things she'd done with her daddy and how this Christmas she wishes Santa could bring her daddy back for Christmas surrendering her toy list completely. I know that Angels hold her hands too because she is a very brave child but a worry wart now.
I remember my husband in remission and thinking how incredibly strong he was and having faith that he would be freed from this awful disease because of the remarkable progress that he'd made, gaining most of his weight back, becoming more & more active and ultimately returning to work full time.. that he'd kicked cancer's butt! I now know that it was GOD preparing him for his next journey......
After having a routine tooth extraction in the first part of September 2013, & experiencing some swelling in the back of his throat that was very persistent & even after two different prescriptions of antibiotics the swelling increased making it almost impossible for him to swallow a biopsy was preformed and reviled that cancer once again had shown its ugly nature and spread causing a very large tumor on the back of his tongue as well as in his lungs and stomach, which was now pulled up to his neck from having his esophagus removed...stage 4... I can remember just clear as day right now that gut wrenching feeling that came over me when his doctor told us that he had 3-6 months to live from that very cold day early in December 2013. I excused myself from the room and must have had a very bad break down...because I can only remember two maybe three nurses helping me from the bathroom floor as I just died on the inside. One of the nurses saying things to me like your not going be homeless and your going to be able to give your daughter a Christmas...all sorts of things that I couldn't really comprehend, "why would she be saying these things to me" Later I realized that I was on the bathroom floor praying that GOD would send me an Angel.... AND that's exactly what he did!
Angels of Hope spread their wings and rescued my family from financial hardships that existed and that bound to spiral out of control. With the help of wonderful nurses from St.John Maross' Professional Building in Warren MI. And the Financial Resources Department at St. John Maross Hospital of Detroit, I was introduced to Mr. Steve York from Angels of Hope. He was able to secure a grant for our family, which allowed Angels of Hope to make our housing & utility payments as well some very needed car repair. Christmas was just ABSOLUTELY beautiful as it had always been. Had it not been for the Angels of Hope network, family,friends and my daughter's school at the time (Steenland Elementary) who provided a new Christmas Tree with all the trimmings.....I probably
WOULDN'T have been able to put my mind at ease to realize that this could be the most precious time our family would have together. Steve York was very sensitive And attentive to the needs of my family. He was always courteous, kind and respectful of how difficult it can be for someone to ask for help. Steve was wonderful through the entire process. I am so grateful, as so many of us are to be sent an Angel in our time of need. For me this has been an on going battle. Losing my husband has been unbelievably difficult. He would've been 52 this past November 20. I miss him through my soul our baby daughter is in counciling to help with her grief. I've not yet found the courage to express my deepest feelings to anyone especially a complete stranger, perhaps one day I will. I haven't been able to work since my husband departed this earth. And as we approach Christmas again, I find myself worried for my baby girl. These are the the times that I pray the longest & ask God for strength and knowledge. AND just when I'm at my wits end my Angels appear again watching over us and removing burden from my weary heart.....The Angels of Hope has reached out to me this Christmas and again prepared to help me with making sure that the first Christmas without Michael, my husband...and my daughter's Angel from above; will not be only joyous but a time to remember and reflect on God's Angeles upon us.
I pray for the family's who have and are grieving a loved one....know that you are not alone and Angels always walk among us....

THANK YOU ANGELS Of HOPE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART