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My name is Chester, I'm from Houston, Texas. I had heart surgery (5 bypasses). For the operation they stopped my heart for 8 hour while they performed the surgery. I was hooked to a heart lung machine that kept my blood circulating and oxygen flowing. I can't tell you what happened during the operation, but I can vividly recall being in a completely different place and I was not alone. Everything around me was white, like the whiteness of milk. I felt soon good and relaxed as if I was supposed to be there, as if I belong there. Then, a woman slowly start to materialize in front of me. I did not know who she was but I felt comfortable, at ease, Love with her, in her presence. She spoke to me, not with words, I just knew what she was saying and asking me. She asked me where is various family members where, as if testing me to see if I knew. Remember everything around me was completely white, but I just knew in what direction everyone was and I pointed to each members. Some family members have long pass and some still here but I knew where everyone was. After what seemed like 5 or 10 minutes of with her, she began to slowly back away. As she moved backwards, she slowly started to vanish. "No, don't go. Please, don't go", I start saying to myself. I didn't want her to leave. I wanted to go with her. I felt sooo much at peace there, so good, no pain, no fear, no worries and a beautiful feeling I just can't explain in words. Then I started hearing familiar voice coming from behind me in this white void. It was my mother calling my name. Then I heard my brother-in-law, then a cousin. I turned towards the voices and began to follow them. My mother's voice got louder and louder as I got closer and closer to the source of her voice. Then like as if someone pushed me from behind, I opened my eyes. Pain,and more pain as soon as I opened my eyes. My arms where strapped down and a tube down my throat. Tubes coming out of my body everywhere, I was startled and felt trapped. I tried to move, I didn't know what was or had happened to me. The pain, so much pain. There was a nurse there softly telling me "your o.k. calm down, your o.k.". She said I just got out of surgery, she said my family is here. My mother, my brother-in-law, my cousin, they all have been in to see you and have been talking to you in the recovery room. As she, the nurse held my hand, I released her grip and with my finger I wrote "mom" in the palm of her hand. She said,"she's right outside the room, I'll get her". My mom came in an grabbed my hand and started stroking my head, saying "your o.k., you made it". I immediately released my mom's hand and wrote in her palm, "Pain". I never felt pain like this in my life, I never knew there was such a level of pain like I was feeling. My mom told the nurse and she came in with a dose of morphine. The morphine kicked in immediately and the nurse and my mom had to remind me that I just had heart bypass surgery. They had to cut me open and saw through my chest bone. My entire chest cavity had to be pried opened. Several days later, my doctor came in and explained everything they did to me during the surgery. The operation took 8 hours and had to perform 5 bypasses. They had to stop my heart for those 8 hours to perform the surgery. The heart lung machine helped to keep my blood circulating and oxygenated. That 8 hours only seemed to me about 10-15 minutes. So the question that I continuously ponder to myself is, was I alive or dead? Did something happen during the operation? I was in a different place "this white void" speaking without words to this woman whom I have never seen before. I still can feel that peace, Love, belonging and that indescribable Beautiful feel I had. I was conscious and aware and remember everything I seen in this white void during my 8 hour (heart stopped) operation. Can someone or anyone help me explain this. Is it an medical explanation or beyond.