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I went to Tara on June 1, 2007. I had gone to end my life the day before and accidentally left my gun at home. I was broke, hopeless, 50 lbs underweight and hadn't slept for days. My drug of choice was crack cocaine and meth, but anything that would get me high would work in a pinch. I wanted to die, my family had been called to a friends house where I had finally stopped running and just broke down. They knew enough to know that they didn't have the answers. They took me to Tara. I did not give much hope to this either. After appeasing them I could just go on and end my life. I hadn't seen my kids in a couple of weeks and figured they were better off anyway. After the assessment I hugged them and they left.
I went down to my bed and was introduced to the other clients. Next day we started groups and meetings. About a week in I felt I had made a mistake and at 2 am went to the nurses station and announced that I was cured and I was leaving. The night nurse told me to go read a chapter and then come back. That 10 minutes was all it took for that urge to pass and I stayed.

About two weeks in I walked to the top of the ramp leading out of the basement. The sky was blue, the grass was green, the barn was red and the birds were singing. It was like pealing the sticker off of a Claritin commercial. I had been wandering in a black and white fog. It was amazing. Like the big book says, a true upheaval . Two days later at family visit, my mom look into my eyes and said, "you're back. You have been so hollow for so long and I see my son again." I took to the program like I was on fire. I became group leader and realized the opportunity that I had and grabbed it with both hands. When I left Tara I took the tools that they had given me and started to live the life God intended me to live. I got a sponsor and continued to keep touch with counselors and a roommate.

That was 6 1/2 years ago. I am remarried now. I have twins sons and a good relationship with my older three kids and I love every minute of life. I still have hurdles in life and problems, but drugs and alcohol aren't a part of them.

I credit Tara and the counselors and the magic in that place with saving my life.

Jason D

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