I found this forum a couple months after my boyfriend took his life. I was searching for someone who would understand what I was feeling. The members of this forum understood and spoke my feelings exactly. Without it, I don't know where I would be right now. It's usually the first thing I read in the morning and the last thing I read before I go to sleep. I find tremendous comfort in knowing I'm not alone in these feelings of shock, sadness, and utter despair. I don't think someone who has not experienced this type of loss can truly understand how a suicide survivor's life is totally impacted and changed. In the Alliance of Hope forum, everyone understands. I read others' posts and immediately identify with their stories, their struggles, the feelings of guilt and overwhelming grief that comes along with losing someone to suicide. I am so thankful this forum exists. If I hadn't found it, I'm sure I would have convinced myself I was going crazy. Instead there is a community gathered here in these message boards that allows us to navigate together this unimaginable trauma that has entered our lives.