Hi my name is Linette Hosendorf and I am a Survior of mental and physical abuse. When I look back and see where God has brought me I can only give God the Praise. My ex husband was my abuser and everyday I had to wait and see how his day was going to be. He also was on crack, the abuse was before the addiction it just got worst. I was not able to go to church but when I did I couldn't stay for all the services, he would pick fights so when I wouldn't argue he said I was ignoring him, so he would do the finger poking in the face or the hits to the body, because he knew I would never show my body, and if he hit me in places people could see he knew people would question me. One time he made me go down into our basement and just argued and took a pole from off my son swing and held it to my neck while he just fussed. He went to pick up a 20or 30 pound weight because he stated that he was going to hit me with and I start praying hard and loud pleading the Blood of Jesus, my abusers eyes were red and his face was so angry that he looked like a demon. Thanks be to God that weight he use to be able to pick up he couldn't lift , I knew that was no body but The Lord, I continue to pray and I heard the basement door open and someone yelled down the steps, what's goin on? That's how I got out of that that time. I would always think that he would get better each time it was getting closer to my death. One day he hit me with a piece of wood and I put my arm up to block it and he injured my wrist, I had been to go to the emergency room so many times that this time the Dr came in the room and he saw me and he asked me what happened I said, a car door slammed on it.. He stopped writing and looked at me and said, one day your gonna have a tag hanging from your toe. The Dr. Left the room and sent a nurse to wrap my wrist.
I did not have the courage to leave some years later it wasn't just about me I had to get my children out of that environment. My girlfriend was taking a class I beli in Social Work and she came across some information but she said don't tak it if your not going to use it, because if he finds this information he will probably try to kill you. Some months went by I got in touch with my girlfriend told her I was ready. She gave me the info, I hid the card. He never stopped putting his hands on my, but the mental was getting just as bad. One day he hit me over the head with the phone handle, because I wasn't mad that his girlfriend was on the phone. I had already started packing, in trash bags cause he would think that was laundry. He went to work that morning I dropped my children off my to oldest to my moms took my youngest with me. I called the WAA hotline and they told me I had to be dropped off in west philly in a specific spot alone. They took me to a shelter, then transitional housing (Sojouner), to Diginity Housing. I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for WAA.
YOU CAN NOT CHANGE A PERSON, THEY ARE WHO THEY ARE..ONLY GOD CAN FIX THEM!!!
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