Southeastern Oklahoma Services For Family Violence Intervention Inc

Hello, my name is Jessica, and this is my best friend Mister. I realize this year has been hard on most, I'm just trying to find my way, and take my best friend with me. Mist and i have been with each other right at 1 yr this month. In May of 2022, the man that i was with for 7 yrs. put his hands around my throat and choked me until i lost bodily fluids (it takes 15 seconds for the body to give in and shut down organs when being strangled) We met in 2015, where we were both in out patient programs for DOC, and remained sober for the first 4yrs of our relationship, running into a few bumps when i relapsed and went to prison for 8months in 2017-2018. He broke up with me 3 days before my release, because of an on going relationship he started while i was away. I have always been very depressed, but upon learning this i hit bottom. Going into sober living after being released was probably the best thing for me, but the pain i felt took over, and shortly after 9mos i hit rock bottom. Having been in therapy since i was 8 yrs old, due to being molested by a family member, i knew what was to be expected. Self medicating every day just to function, was all i could do to get out of bed everyday. I just wanted my old life back. We got back together after he had enough of the fling, but the contents of our relationship had changed drastically considering all we had been through. We were both on drugs, and yet unable to leave each other alone, because we were all each other had. Finally i had enough, and ended our relationship in march of 2022, i was confident i had done all i could do, given all i had to give, and would rather be alone than being lied to, cheated on, and humiliated every day for nearly 3yrs. I lost the respect of my family, my children, and my friends, and found myself very alone. He came to my house trying to get me back a few months later, right when i was starting to be ok with out him, and i respectfully declined. He found a good enough reason in his mind to try and take my life. I lost everything including my mind and was traveling to and from Dallas Texas as an escort to support my self, living in hotels and filling my body with poison, with no hope of ever having a normal life again. In February of 2022, i came home to Oklahoma in the middle of the night due to a life changing experience of trying to kill myself and failing once again. I told my mother what i was doing and asked if i could come home, and she said to me in cold blood " it looks like you have some tough decisions to make", and hung up the phone. i had made enough money in Dallas to get a room for a week, where i plotted my untimely death, and failing this time was not an option. A friend of mine met me at a hotel on i-35, and stayed with me, worried if they left me by myself, it would be the last time they would see me alive. We took a walk the next day and a lady was giving away puppies. This was the beginning of a beautiful friendship. He brought purpose to my life and i no longer wanted to die, although we have been through some really rough times, he truly came at just the right time, and has saved my life. 2023 was a year of reflection, and putting things into perspective, so i could look at things in a different lite and figure out what my options were from there. Many many nights, weeks, even months it being just him and i, building a bond i never had with any human. The end of the year was approaching , and my view of the world was very different. In this time the only people i saw or spoke to involved clients of mine whom i didn't know nor wanted to learn, keeping me very distant from anyone i knew and used to love. Making it hard for me to be out in public, around loud noises, or anything normal of my far from perfect life. Having retained some very jaded information about what "normal" looked like, I knew i needed to do something about the view i had on life, if i ever wanted to return to what society says is acceptable in regards to being normal again. I found a place called " The Wave", of Clearwater, in Clearwater, Florida. It is a all Womans facility, where they specialize in PTSD, and Trauma, and wouldn't you know it? they will let me bring my furry friend, whom i couldn't do life without at the moment. February, 13th, 2024 i had a $67,000 surgery on removal of a tumor in my abdomen, and a shockwave treatment to break up rather large kidney stones. With no where to go, and not being able to really rely on anyone for help, and my family being a distant memory i am forced to forget, 2 days after my surgery i found myself , and my dog in an abandoned house in the freezing cold, with no hope in site. So i called The Wave, and explained to them my situation, expressing my true desire to come and get the help i need and long for. It took a couple of days, but they were able to accept Mister and ii, but before i can go i needed to do a few things in order to be able to fly with my animal and get the help that i need. Remerge of Oklahoma was the DOC program i graduated from in 2017. They offer continuum care for their graduates for life, and have installed hope back into my future. They were able to get Misters shots up to date, and help me put of some pretty sticky situations that otherwise might have been detrimental to my drive to be better. Having a full plate already with the girls whom need their immediate attention still striving to finish the program, i realized that, although they said they would help, they couldn't possibly do everything i needed from them done. They were the ones who taught me what to do in a time like this, by reaching out, standing up for myself, and advocating for myself and my life saver( Mister) so that we can complete the requirements to get us to Florida. Having Misters immunizations up to date was a big part of it, i still need to have him registered as a ESA and a SA certification, which requires a 7 day online coarse, adding up to $298. The co-pay after the kind people of The Wave, offered and gave me special scholarships of $400, a $400 plain ticket there, and home, and money to cover my medication, and any other out of pocket expenses while i am there. It would mean so much to me to be able to embrace this well needed experience, and actually check myself into this mental health facility to get the help i need and deserve, so that i can learn how to deal with, and live again with the trauma my poor decisions has brought upon me . stemming from a negligent childhood, that no one should ever have to figure out on their own. Anything that could bring me closer to my goal of $2000 would be very appreciated and well spent. Giving Mister and i the dream of the life we truly desire.
you can reach me at Jessicaprice0113@gmail.com